In my early twenties I became conscious of being liberated and free with the notion to not expect anything. There was the simple appreciation of life and existence – beauty in a weed or profundity in a moment or in enacting an act. A lot of it was compensation for disappointment or emptiness. Expect nothing, so as to grasp the moment as it is, to live the moment, or perhaps through and beyond the moment grasped, to find life herself.
Have no expectation would work for a period of time, a day or two, sometimes not long at all. To get there or it, might take moments to hours and sometimes it didn’t work. I had to work at it.
Now I know of the whole body and the spirit, one and present. I understand the “hold on gravity” (the displaced countenance to our projected actuality) and the constant (identity) we pretend to be (in virtuality assuming it to be perpetuity). The hc identified with the wot against the whole body in and of reality, gravity and the present, determines our metaphysical make-up in projection. The hc is invalid in being isolated from its whole, identified with what is experienced rather than who creates and places, or projects, our reality of our self and what we experience.
We and our reality are actuality. They exist, but in and as projection or projected actuality, as projected parts of a whole being in creation, in reality. No constant reference in projection can release our particular settings also in projection.
Even the whole body is easily reduced to a concept or a mantra, a “thing”. The thing itself as is, and its actuality, is beyond understanding, cognition or mind’s grasp. The whole body who is, is there in reality beyond projected actuality, experience, and our sense and notion.
The zen and the gestalt takes one beyond the goal, experience, state, process, and the self – through actuality, reality or the way (Dao) may open. But the basis for everything is the whole body who projects our reality. The spirit one, at the core of every one thing, is the essence of the whole of creation or All creation God. It is the true constant beyond references, a true gravitational presence and life.