I remember thinking when 14, “I don’t know what I want”. For decades, I searched for “What is there?”. I pursued matters both within and without myself , but came to look more and more within.
I was lying on the bed, the children were still young, thinking of the mountains and the sea. I had a sense of the seasons, entering the room from outside. I realised soon after the whole body was of the seasons, who is of wilderness. He/she encompasses all that we experience, including our sense of nature, the divine, one another, our connection as well as our separation.
My pursuit for “What is there?” transformed to “Who is there to relate with”. And that relation is with our whole, as a part.
The human condition is a part of a whole body. We, as identity, and our reality we experience, both outside of ourselves and within, are “projected”, ie. created and placed, by the whole body from the Central Nervous System. The whole body is in and of reality, while our reality is projection, a part of which is a virtual or seemingly real indication of reality, we usually regard as reality and refer to as “the world”.
Current scientific understanding goes only so far as to consider as epiphenomena or concurrent activity, our subjective experience and brain activity, associated with but not necessarily caused by. However, I think we should consider our self as a projected part of a whole self, whole being and whole body. As a part, we may refer beyond our self and our isolating identification with what we experience, and be involved in a relation with our whole being, in what may be considered a process of reality.
You cannot just reflect on this as if an idea or hypothesis, as if a free and independent agent, because you are involved – you are in it. It is your actuality – we are the self or identity, in our reality.
“Orientation” brings Reality, an Entirety, together with our part, through our whole who is of Reality. It formulates my understanding and approach to the human condition and reality, their relation and process. Gendo is more its practice and expression.
As a projected part of a whole being in reality, it is not our only destiny to be lost in the human condition, so fatefully identified with what we experience. We may also be in relation with our whole, as a part.
The whole body is a special entity in reality for us, for we belong to one. While every other entity in reality can only manifest as an indication in our projected reality, reality can reach us, if we can relate with whom we belong to as a part – our truth in relation with the whole truth, our true destiny as a part of and in relation with our whole. We must exercise our will in this.
I came to live in Australia from Japan as a child. I worked as a medical doctor during which time I began to appreciate and sense the human condition as a projected actuality. I have pursued a relation with the whole body and, together with my sons and others in my life, have come to appreciate and become more familiar with this relationship.
I hope the works presented here resonates with you and find some bearing on your relation with your whole and reality.
tt4r Sydney, May 2014