I remember when I was 14, thinking “I don’t know what I want”. I recognise now, how for the following decades, I had been searching for “What is there?”. I pursued matters both within myself and without, but came to look more and more within.
I was lying on the bed when the children were still young, missing the mountains and the sea. I had a sense of the seasons entering the bedroom, and soon after realised that the whole body is what, or rather who, is wilderness; he/she encompasses all that we experience including our sense of nature, the divine, one another as well as our isolation.
My pursuit for “What is there?” transformed to “Who is there to relate with”.
The human condition is a part of a whole body. We, as identity, and our reality we experience both outside of ourselves and within, are “projected”, ie. created and placed, by the whole body from the Nervous System. The whole body is in and of reality, while our reality is projection, a part of which is a virtual or seemingly real indication of reality, we usually regard as reality and refer to as the world.
Current scientific understanding goes only so far as to consider as epiphenomena or concurrent activity, our subjective experience, associated with but not necessarily caused by brain activity. However, I think we should consider our self as a projected part of a whole self, whole being or whole body. As a projected actuality and part, we may refer beyond our self and our isolating identification with what we experience, and be involved in a relation with a whole body, in what may be considered a process of reality.
You cannot just reflect on this hypothesis as if a free and independent agent, but must be involved, in testing it if you like, for you already are involved – you are in it. It is your actuality – we are the self or identity in our reality. As a projected part and actuality of a whole human being in reality, it is not our only destiny to be so fatefully lost in the human condition, identified with what we experience. The whole body is a special entity in reality for us, for we belong to one. While every other entity in reality can only manifest as an indication in our projected reality, reality can reach us, if we can relate with whom we belong to as a part – our truth in relation with the whole truth, our true destiny as a part of and in relation with our whole. We must exercise our will in this.
“Orientation” is an attempt at formalising my understanding and approach to this, the human condition and reality, their relation and process. Gendo is more its practice and expression.
I came to live in Australia from Japan as a child. I worked as a medical doctor during which time I began to appreciate and sense the human condition as a projected actuality. I have pursued a relation with the whole body and, together with my sons and others in my life, have come to appreciate and become familiar with some of the nuances of this relationship.
I hope the works presented here resonates with you and find some bearing on your relation with your whole and reality.
tt4r Sydney, May 2014