The self split solipsistic and existential

Solipsistic self sulks within
susceptible to seductions and suggestions.poem 2 2b

While the sensing and seeing self
taps its vectored sceptre’s tip
into an apparent world,
sumptuous with story and certainty
yet mired by a rift in oneself
solipsistic and existential,
against the phenomenal world.

Both self-s are lost, isolated
from their whole being, of Reality (one and only whole)poem 2 2c
who lives, is and does in Reality
while encompassing and projecting
one’s each self-s and their all.

Each self may refer to its whole;
though transcendent,
one’s whole from one’s part,
everything of one’s self and reality
is a part of one’s whole,
next to other wholes in
and of, Reality.

 

One circle (in grey) : represents one’s whole self, whose boundaries, touched by the rest of Reality, are lost in our whole’s transcendence from our part. The circle thus also contains the transcendence (from our part) of Reality and other wholes, which is why there is only one circle. The “circle and flick”, the one within and the four outside of the one circle, indicates the realm of one’s projected part (projected by one’s whole through the CNS or brain and spine).
Phenomenal word : “ … apparent world, though sumptuous with story, ….” ; our phenomenal world or the world we experience and try to understand, is an indication of the real world, projected by our whole through the CNS for our functioning and for judging friend or foe.
Projection : Our reality, including our self, is a part of one’s whole, projected by the whole self through his or her CNS (Central nervous System) or the brain and spinal cord. Projection is the substance of our reality and its components (the conscious, self, experience, deeper being, etc) which occupy certain shapes in particular places, in relation with their whole, in their “actuality” (the existence in fact of our reality as projection).
Self-s : pl. of self. As parts of our whole self, we may acknowledge numerous self-s, of different realms (cognitive, emotive, somatic, dreaming), different states (drugged, exhausted, focused, pressured), different occasions and company, etc.
Solipsistic : where one’s self is the only sense, is thought here to originate from when first becoming conscious within the womb, the state of which remain, carried by our whole in the wake (to the left) of our existential rise to meet the phenomenal world, centred inside out, on the right (as indicated in the diagrams that capture our situation, our projected actuality, from behind).

see recent poems and diagrams for more on the solipsistic and its split against existential –
Our lot
“solipsist”